Saturday, August 16, 2008
Bumpy ride
My learning journey is indeed a rough and bumpy one. Is there actually a job suitable for this blur and clumsy girl like me? To some, it may seem that I am a sloopy person, who couldn't care less about anything else in the world, or this responsibility. To some, it may seem that such light workload is too tedious for her. To others, it may seem that this girl is simply hopeless. Sad that she is such a person, but still, absolutely hopeless.
What can I say?? I am like this. Perpetually confused. Lack efficiency. Careless with words. Even though it is highly encouraged for me to speak up, I think it is better that I shut up and drive (myself to salvery).
Self identification required. Who am I? What can I do?
There were kind souls who came over to consoled me after
the talk. But I have to say I have already ready for such talks long before I started the journey. Thanks alot for your concern. I really appreciate it. But I would appreciate more if you pretend that nothing happened. Such warmth and concern will only bring out the emotional side of me. Something that would be utterly embarrassing and reflects badly on my image. I wish I can reply you and say thank you. But I'm afraid I will only embarrass myself.
Well, all I can say is that, if ever I know of what I can do or eat or whatever to make myself more organised, I'll do it. I need to able to do things on my own. Serious. But what can I give in return? I have nothing but a pile of half past six skills.
Hey Pessimistic me: you have entered an one-way street. The only thing that you can do is to grow up and be un-confused.
SpilLeD by b|uE at 1:03:00 am
