Monday, November 17, 2008
should there be a second chance?
Like a cliche drama, I am going to start this post with 'one fine day'. 'One fine day' represents any normal day with a normal weather, meeting the usual people and doing the mundane things.One fine day, TK, JC and I had lunch in a little hotel opposite the office. As usual, TK and JC were gossiping about school stuff and I was there listening. Half listening. The other part of my brain drifted to a complicated question that someone posted previously. (Ya - that someone was once an important person to me. So important that when e wanted out, I did the craziest things in attempt to keep him with me. That was the past... not so long ago)
Out of the blue (to me), TK mentioned this friend of hers who is dating her ex once again after breaking up for very long. This snapped me back to reality. So I asked, 'Since we are on this topic, would you go back to your previous boyfriends if given a choice?' Both their answers were negative and here's their reasons (something like that):
TK - 'there must had been something that didn't work for the two which was serious enough to cause a break-up. Both must have tried hard to overcome the problem and obviously it didn't worked. Since that is the case, i don't think i want to go back to a r/ship that won't work'
JC - 'r/ship is troublesome. since it had been problematic enough to cause a break up in the first place, why would i want to go back into the same problem?'
Both of them spoke in the same tune. I wished I had shared my problem with you when TK asked. But it didn't felt right at that point of time. If you haven't already guessed, ya - that once-very-important person asked if i still loved him. if i would give him another chance to make things work.
I don't what to do. I took a long time to stop crying for him, to stop having the urge to call him when i'm not suppose to. Really, i'm now at this all-guys-are-bastards stage and at the same time forgetting all my feelings for him. But in the midst of recovering, this question is like eating deep-fried sinful chicken wings while being on diet. Totally ruin the effect.
I have to admit my heart did skip a beat when i heard his confession. But at the same time, i cannot forget how he had treated me when he broke up with me. My reply to him was that i'll give him another chance after his exams, just so that this incident will not ruin his studying mood.
But really, what should I do? If there's a god, or Buddha, can you give me a sign? I have 2 weeks till the end of his exams. thank you.
SpilLeD by b|uE at 1:23:00 am
Sunday, November 16, 2008
出去走走
那天在爸爸车里偶然听到这首歌。眼泪差点流下来。歌词说出了我想离家的心情。在电视上，常常看到中国的长城，巴黎的铁塔，台湾的风情。。。世界真大。小小的新加坡变得更小了。
小小的新加坡的一政府制，一切都控制。21年来，我越来越喘不过气，我想出去走走。好想好想。。。
爱我的爸爸，你也有同感吗？
爱我的朋友，你们会支持我吗？
陈洁仪 - 天冷就回来
从前对着收音机
学唱旧的歌
我问妈妈为什么
伤心像快乐
妈妈笑着
说她也不懂得
喔 妈妈点点头
天冷你就回来
别在风中徘徊
妈妈眼里有明白
还有一丝无奈
天冷我想回家
童年已经不再
昨天的雨点洒下来
那滋味叫做爱
呜 别在风中徘徊
呜 天冷就回来
渐渐对着收音机
学唱新的歌
我问朋友为什么
做梦也快乐
朋友笑说
他从不相信梦
我想出去走一走
喔 朋友点点头
天冷你就回来
别在风中徘徊
朋友的眼里有明白
还有一份期待
天冷我想回家
年少已经不再
今天的雨点洒下来
那滋味就是爱
现在对着收音机
听自己唱的歌
我的他问为什么
幸福不快乐
我微笑着
说我也不懂得
他想出去走一走
我对他点点头
天冷你就回来
别在风中徘徊
我猜我眼里有明白
还有一丝无奈
天冷他没回家
我仍然在等待
明天的雨点洒下来
那滋味就是爱
呜 别在风中徘徊
呜 天冷就回来
SpilLeD by b|uE at 10:57:00 pm
Sunday, November 09, 2008
me, myself and I...
credits: Getty Images
I am Miss Independent.
I am happy to be alone.
I am learning and growing.
I am not jealous.
I am not sad.
I am my best friend.
Me, myself and I.
