Tuesday, November 24, 2009
Here's to the girls (and guys)
"Here's to the girls who couldn't cry to their friends because of how stupid they felt. The ones who held it all in when things came crumbling to pieces again. This is for the ones who couldn't bear to even tell their mom what was going on, for fear of an "I told you so."We knew that we deserved better the entire time, that we deserved a guy who would call when he said he was going to, one that would come see us when ever he got the chance, one that would really care about us. We just wanted the one that we loved like that.
This is for those days spent trying to hold back the tears, and the tears that turned into anger, then disappointment.
Here's for us girls who finally realized that we deserve better.
This is for those confusing days, when you miss him, and want nothing more than to hear his voice, or feel his arms around your waist.
Stay strong, and remember that relationships are like broken glass, sometimes it's better to leave it alone rather than try to put the pieces back together and get hurt all over again.
Remember the times you cried, and how long it took you to even be able to look at another guy like that.
Think of all the broken promises, and the lies, the manipulation and the tears, the wasted moments and staying up all night wondering where the HELL he was. Think of how your heart used to jump when your phone would vibrate in the middle of the night, and how it fell to your stomach when you saw it wasn't him, and realized that once again, he hadn't called when he said he was going to.
One day, you'll find a guy whose worth all the tears, but he won't make you cry. You may think that you'll never care about someone like you did that guy that you always ran back to, but you will. It's gonna hurt like hell, and it's going to need time to heal, but the point is, it will heal.."
SpilLeD by b|uE at 1:45:00 am
Element song (as in from the periodic table)
I think someone I knew will be interested in this song :)
Have seen this a few years back. Chanced upon it again and watching this still has the same effect on me. Cheers to friendship~
More over here and here<
SpilLeD by b|uE at 1:20:00 am
Sunday, November 15, 2009
Indifference
How should I be feeling when people are indifferent to my effort to make them feel at home, or my effort to make this work out?Should I endure and think that they are just shy to express their views and gratitude?
Should I forget it since they might feel irritation instead of gratitude?
Should I also be indifferent and dismiss future attempts to put in effort to interact with them, since all they want might be just for me to leave them alone?
I have never been a good communicator, am never good at expressing myself, neither am I good at reading others. So much so that I always end up being oblivious to any 'sixth sense' of sort that would tell me how others feel about my intentions.
I wish I have telepathic ability that could help me decipher smiles, eye contact, body language, etc.
SpilLeD by b|uE at 11:36:00 pm
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
只羨鴛鴦不羨仙
自古以來 "只羨鴛鴦不羨仙" 這句話真是一點都沒錯
其實, 如果鴛鴦的其中一位是自己的好友, 一點也不"羨". 我反倒是感到欣慰, 也為他們感到開心!
老實說, 自認小心眼的我并不認為自己是這樣的人, 但看到他們幸福的樣子, 我仿佛受到幸福的感染, 也為他們感到快樂. ;)
希望我身邊的鴛鴦朋友們都能有情人終成眷屬 ;0)
SpilLeD by b|uE at 10:37:00 pm
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Suffocation
Craving for a good bowl of Salmon Don. Any recommendations??
Yearning for good places to visit around Singapore Island. Any suggestions??
~Random thoughts while buried in deadlines~
SpilLeD by b|uE at 1:22:00 pm
Monday, November 09, 2009
Waiting...
Chanced upon a friend's blog and was watching her home-made video. It had a storyline that is felicitous to our daily life. Waiting.I spend more than 2 hours waiting for public transport to and fro school daily. Sometimes when we finally get on, we wait for the driver to bring us to school. We wait at queues to buy our food, we wait at queues to use the loo. "Wait a moment"s when calling customer service hotlines? Waiting to see the doctor? Each day, we spend hours just waiting, doing nothing. These are just waits that are more 'visible' to us.
How about waits that are 'invisible'? Like waiting for first love, true love? (Or some wants to wait for truer love even though true love was just in their faces) Waiting for the boss to acknowledge your achievement? Waiting for promotion? Waiting for yourself to grow up and mature? Even though you are doing something else concurrently while waiting for these to happen, these waits do still frustrate you and make you forget yourself.
Really, what is the point of waiting?? I do not know. Maybe I'm dimmer and need some enlightenment.
Despite not knowing its purpose, I always have this bad habit of wanting people to wait for me. My parents have to wait for me to wait for me to prepare to go out for meals or weekend outings. Friends had to wait because I was always late. It frustrated them, I know, so much so that they stop going out with me. Believe me, I've suffered serious consequence when I caused people to wait. I used to wonder why. But I guess deep down, I did have some idea. Waiting usually happens when you want or need to accommodate others. It's unavoidable I guess, living in a place where interpersonal skills matter as much as breathing and eating. Despite the standardised concept of time, people operate on different clockworks. Hence, there is always a need to factor in 'waiting time' or 'buffering' in every event that requires the participation of more than 1 people. This 'visible' waiting time I call it, causes the loss of invisible minutes when added together, something else could have be done.
For those invisible waiting in life. You don't actually feel it. Not me at least, but when time comes for reflection, which happens out of the blues more often than not, you realised that much time is wasted on waiting, for true love for example, when one could have just pursued his/her love.
Waiting is so passive but yet people do it all the time. There are some 'waits' that can be utilised with the help of technology such as mobile phones, laptops, PDAs etc. But there are some 'waits' that are unavoidable and worse, might just end up fruitless.
What is the point of waiting?
